Not Quite There Yet

Mm... Romans 12:3...

in a of moment of clarity and honesty...?

theres been breaking... humbling... seeking and change and growth and ouch and wails... and hours in the Presence of God..

but after all that...



.....i submit im *still* too full of self.


There was Moses at 40, and there was Moses at 80. In between the two, 40 years of tending smelly sheep. With all his training, wonder if he preached at them.... i can imagine.. at the altar call?

"meeeehhh..."

40 years of humble service without recognition.



There was Saul in the palace with his tall stature, good looks and a long list of credentials, and David in the field with his sheep, harp and a heart after God. In between the two, all the stuff that man sees, versus all the stuff that God sees. U'know... I look around... I guess some of us have 'qualifications'. Gd to have, but not if it gets in the way of God. mm... I do know whats in my heart, and its not all good.

Lord, this year, more than ever, ive shown the ugly.. but its all real, all there. no more pharisee-ish prayers Dad... 'have mery on me, a sinner'



There was Gideon with the 32,000 , and Gideon with the 300. In between the two, the faith filled trading of Man's strength, for God's strength. The same battle, but a very different approach.

Whose strength do I really trust? Takes a constant surrender. Soul searching.... in order...


I think sheep and harps might not be a bad next step... and maybe pick up a broom and sweep the floor a while too.